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Tuesday, December 1st, 2009
2:23 am	To Don a Diamond Aegis as a Stranger in a Strange Land My mind placed this song in my head today and it seems appropriate: love my way it's a new road I follow where my mind goes Of course, things are never made so simple. It seems like it should be, though. I guess that is the gist of trying to live in accordance with personal principles and ideologies. If the world is damaged, one must first repair it (for themselves, at least) before they can live in an undamaged way, within it. There is beauty in hardship There are poems in grief There are trials we must go through Though they may shake our beliefs --Assemblage 23 ("Damaged") As much as this can be the cause for sorrow and fear, it is also the source of my most potent notions of identity. So long as I know who I am, all damage is superficial (only in that I will recover). It has been a long time since I found that crystal while nearly drowning in the murk. As long as that story stays with me, I can still get back up and keep walking. It was, after all, the last time I doubted my identity or those things which define me. I needed that galvanization for all that came after. Truths you find through your adversities will defend you as your powers and all your energies conspire to carry you --VNV Nation ("Carry You") Now for the hardest part, though. Now that I have built myself to stand the torrent, I am able to see the greater responsibilities which I always assumed were out of reach. I must either sell my thoughts into the greater sphere or... ...and therein lies the difficulty. I can understand this situation from my point of view or culturally similar views but beyond that I am lost. My earliest thoughts of the old world were my observations that I was not part of it. I can't remember what it even meant to live that way, anymore. How do I find a balance between two cultures when I have lost the ability to understand both? I can't project my empathy through that barrier. This is why I find myself feeling this way, tonight. I know that I have failed when the only words I have are love my way and I am reminded that they are insufficient, ...Nights Current Mood: sad Current Music: Love My Way - The Psychedelic Furs - Forever Now (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 29th, 2009
10:56 pm	The Die is Cast... I have had enough of these fruitless divisions so I will confront them the only way I know how: head-on. I have become too aware of these fractures in the sphere so, with this action, I seek to clear them and coalesce all of these splinters. One spark amongst the embers One voice against surrender --Assemblage 23 (Spark) Let us rebuild that which we have so slowly lost, ...Nights Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: Spark - Assemblage 23 - Compass (Deluxe Edition) (Comment on this)
9:52 pm	Tuesday, December 1: Zaphod's pre-party I will be doing the weekly Zaphod's pre-party again, this week. The difference is that I will be starting earlier since I have the week off. I will be ready at 7 PM and I assume that we will be here until around 10 PM, before hitting the club (later if there is a good crowd which isn't planning on hitting the club). The usual drill applies: I will have some drinks to share and snack foods so only bring anything if you have specific interests for yourself or to share. So, come one, come all! I know that there are a few interested who need to make the night early and won't be hitting Zaphod's so it means that the responsibility falls upon the rest of the night to make the pre-party worth it for them. Let me know if you are interested and if you need directions, ...Nights Current Mood: excited Current Music: The Cruelest Year - Assemblage 23 - Compass (Deluxe Edition) (4 Comments |Comment on this)
11:53 am	This Space of Dark Materials All this grand beauty of the chaos... It is this space between concrete moments where the normal laws which govern our realm can be ignored. True, we can only escape the dawn for a time, but time can sometimes be flexible in its supply. Such a strangely common theme, it would seem... The future always remains unknown and my grand fascination is with how we define the correct actions in those moments between tick and tock. The time scale is irrelevant (sometimes it can be mere minutes, or several hours, an order of weeks, or even more than a year - all of these I have experienced within recent memory) and the concerns are still valid, the difficult questions still difficult. Still, my belief is that it is better to fall in the torrent, than decay in the cave. I suppose that I should get back to the important (and difficult, due to my lack of experience) work, later today. In the meantime, I must hone my inspiration at the crossroads. In many dimensions (officially orthogonal) we can condense the materials and build worlds. I can't do it alone, ...Nights Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: Bloody Pleasures - BlutEngel - Seelenschmerz (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 28th, 2009
7:52 pm	Vacationing at Home Thursday night marked the beginning of my vacation and it decided to arrive with a great deal of force. What started out as a relaxing coffee at the Oh So Good quickly turned into Beer O'Clock at Swizzles. That, in turn, quickly turned into overindulging in the generosity of the bar owner and a few other people. This meant that by the time I left, I was definitely in a sideways world. The perfect beginning to a vacation which I hope will be spent in much the same spirit: social and drunk. Friday night seemed to go much the same way, albeit later. Went to meet dolston just before midnight and spent the next 6 hours drinking with him. Stumbled home as the sun was coming up and spent all today's daylight hours sleeping. Now, to see what happens as this night gets started... ...Nights Current Mood: relaxed Current Music: Over - The Birthday Massacre - Nothing and Nowhere (2 Comments |Comment on this)